So recently I decided with my strong independent self, to suck up my pride and speak to my ex! Which was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.
So your wondering "how did ya'll break up?"
Well we were together for almost 2 years. I fell in love with him the first time I saw him literally. Even when he was dating other people, I still had a feeling in my heart that one day we would be together and we did. It was rocky at first because a lot of people in my high school didn't want us together. We never fought in public or argued. We handled all of our problem like adults. We made sure we never went to bed angry with each other. I believed that God should be in the center of our relationship at all times. So when it came to sex he already knew he wasn't having it!!! And he was proud and pleased of my decision and never asked to have it.
After high school graduation we had a wonderful summer and then college started. Which was weird for us both. We were away from each other for an entire summer once so we knew, well I knew that it would be okay. But he was holding a lot from me and I never knew he was going through a lot at home which lead to his decision to break up with me with a text message.... yes he sure did.
I went through hell trying to understand why did someone that I loved and someone that I assumed that loved me would do something to me like that. After that everything just went down hill. I had no friends to talk to because they were in college. Also my best friend decided to stop talking to me as well. College was hard and stressful .
So last week Sunday I saw him at a graduation and I confronted him. I know I saw that punk wipe his eyes but he denied it smh. What ever I wanted to say to him I said it... But because I didn't want to bash him for all the pain he put me through, I did assure him that I still pray for him and his family daily and that I forgive him. If God forgives me daily for all the sins I do, I believe as a sinner I should do the same. Life is to short to stay angry and hold malice towards other people!!
It takes a lot of strength and courage to go through what I went through. And I know if I didn't have a relationship with God I would have never had the strength to approach my ex.
The hardest part now is that he has a girl friend but he wants to be friends with me. I can't handle that right now in my life. I am still trying to get over him but how do you get over your first love???
It's hard so it will take time and prayer and time.
How do you you handle being friends with your ex? Or is it okay to be friends with your ex?
If you've ever had this situation happen to you let me know! I would love to know what you did to get through your rough time.